subdued. Whilst that's technically what I wanted before the hectic few months that my third year of uni is going to be, it's also made me wish for some kind of action.
Because whilst Derby might mean free accomodation and food, and a chance to catch up with old friends, entertainment is not something that it provides a priori. You've pretty much got a choice between sitting in a coffee shop, sitting in a bar, or sitting in the street. Though I do so enjoy pretending to be tramp, and/or indulging my caffeinated alter-persona, none of the three options are, well, that special anymore. Meeting up in Big Blue or the pub of the week is just what we've always done. And every time I think to myself 'God, I really want to do something new tonight', I find... that there isn't anything. I don't know quite what I'm looking for - poetry readings, maybe a gig, insert random event here - but Derby just can't provide it.
I'd like to be optimistic that the Westfield centre's imminent arrival will bring unprecedented levels of cultural freshness to Derby's streets, but I'm not. Chances are that it will instead manage to suck whatever unique atmosphere is left out of the place, like some kind of unrequested vampire.
It's a shame for me that Stoke, my other current locale, is just as much of a moodkiller. I really don't know where I'm going to wind up post uni - probably some place with a uni that'll let me do a Master's course, so my 'where the hell am I going' woes won't end until quite a few years down the line. Even further if I do a PhD (again, possible), although by that time my woes will most likely be related to a strange lack of money compared to everyone else in my group of contemporaries.
Apart from the people - who, despite my bouts of bastardly nature towards, I do all genuinely care about - and, depending upon location parents/uni, I don't really see any reason to stay in either Stoke or Derby. And that's going to give me some problems down the line, I imagine - although the philosopher part of me is wondering whether it's the end destination that matters, or the journey. Ah well.
Life kicks off in September. I might be setting up a new blog relating to my society as well, who knows.
Been a while since I've updated this. It's not like I've been overtly busy or anything, more like nothing of huge note has happened to me. This summer has been very...